This is just a beginning, I will conquer all the struggles for my kids!!!

I asked my boss If it's possible to advance my salary due to family matters. I want to process the family visa of my kids, but she reject and said I'm just new and boss will not allowed.

I thought its okay if they rejected my request because I just try and it's like finding needle in the rice field.

But I don't know why I get hurt, and cried in the bathroom... Is it a self pitty? Or it's just that I am disappointed that they don't care. Or it's just because I am too sensitive, or it's because I took a thousand or a million courage before I asked and then she just rejected me in instant.